At 11:11 I thought, ah, I'm in alignment ... all is well. Then, as quickly, the alignment evaporated. I told myself, vibeswitch first, later, feel the feelings. So I placed my attention on the loving supportive kind caring environment of ONA class. I allowed myself to be bathed in the soothing of the kindness ... and then, monkey mind returned and the internal conversation began: ... "what's so difficult for her to treat me with kindness and respect? ..." I allowed it to go on and on. Result: same old same old. Drained. Energy waste. Sadness. Stuck. Frustrated.
I must find my own kindness to self; be gentle with self. Begin again.
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